Ugh. I've been busy. There's fifty billion things I need to do and catch up on. I promise I'll update later about it. At the moment though, university is taking over my liiiiiiiiiiiife. I haven't had a day off since the 17th of March.. and I won't until this Sunday. Ughhh.. I have a constant headache. It's badbadbadbad. Don't worry livejournal friends, I haven't forgotten you!

So now I'm totally determined on making a comic. I've even written up a whole storyline and characters and everything. Yeah. I'm totally motivated or something. Now I just have to draw the damn thing.... *fails* It's only a short story though but lately I seem to have made a drastic improvement in my drawing skill (or at least I would LIKE to think so *failfailfailfail*) so I don't think it should be so bad. Maybe I should start with character profiles or something. Yeah. I haven't drawn them yet but they sound like fun characters... the bio I wrote for them is pretty ridiculous though. It includes lines like "He doesn't talk to people much but he works very hard. He is secretly g-g-g-gay as. He just doesn't know it." Ah. I'm so good at this. *more failure* Hopefully I'll actually DO this and not just SAY I'm going to do it.

I also drew this. yaaayy..( SHHHK! )

I think I need to produce more scribbles than proper "art" just so I can get my proportions and stuff down.

Also.

First five people to respond to this gets a drawing of their choice.

GO!GO!GO!

HMMMMMMMMM... it's been a long while since I've updated, hm? Nothing much has been happening. I got into university though! Yay. I took a photo of my ID because the photo was kind of cute/dorky.

( Here it is )

Even still. I feel like I've been doing nothing at all. I'm not really sure what to do with myself right now. I'm sure a lot of people feel like this - lost, confused, not really sure what's going to happen. But for me it's really frustrating. I'm not unhappy but I want to feel satisfied. Ah. What to do. What to do.

p.s. my paid account ran out. Booooo.. Oh w-well. It's true I never much used it anyway.

I went to the Sydney Anime Christmas party last night. It was fun. Well, except I got roped into doing the doodle competition and I was like... eh.. all right. So I'm like draw draw done okay. And I'm like, yeah, I'll probably win only because I'm the only one that entered.. but nooo.. this other guy called Jeremy entered and he was.. REALLY AMAZING. It makes me really sad. And so from then on I didn't do much else except try to draw better (and failllledddd). It ended in 5 million failed attempts that ended in mangled shota boys, pedo Layton and guro because I just couldn't be bothered with limbs and such.

Guro is actually pretty good. It's quite convenient, really.

Yeah. I fail. F-f-fail.

SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN YEARS.

There's so many things happening right now yet somehow I'm still pretty... bored. I'm trying to scrape together a portfolio for University (hope, hope, hope I get in) and drawing like crazy. But I'm kind of irked. I can't take photos because someone's still got my camera cord and I can't get it back. I'm going to have to get a new one. Noooo. I guess I'll just have to use some old stuff then.

In other news, I feel like writing. Who wants me to send them a letter? I have so much nice paper and stickers and junk and I really want to use it up. Anyone? Just note me your address or whatever; doesn't matter if you're from Australia or America or the moon or whatever. The first person who asks might get something extra nice? (*_*;; )

AND. Speaking of things in the mail, Open and Closed Places number 2 arrived today. H-h-happiness! If you don't know what that is, you should check it out. It was put together so perfectly and the inking really has improved. I was grinning like an idiot as I read it. I really love Jirou; he's so hilarious and sometimes his really ridiculous ideas about romanticism kind of reminds me of myself. It's really, really, really cool. And it came with neat badges and a screen print of Jirou and a sweet letter. It made my day.. at least 100 times.

I really want to do something like that. Maybe I should make a comic... but stories are hard to come up with. Sure, I can write but it's totally different in comic form! I tried it out a little today but I'm not sure how well it worked out. Mainly, it's just sillllllly.

You find yourself caught up over make-believe dramas and wish you were caught up in them. You filter your speech according to how you think your character should act; regardless of what you personally wish to say. But after everything, I think I just want to devote whatever is left of my small life to you and your love in a way that suits appropriately.

I said it and I meant it.

For the first time ever.

Thanks. Now I can't freakin' get back to sleep.

Arggghhhhhhhhhhh... Youuuuuuuuuuuuuu... You're.......

Argh, fuck.

I've been so fucking busy lately. Mainly with Blue Note but also with work. Blue Note is speeding ahead so fast I don't even know how to keep up with it. We've released our first short doujinshi here and at our deviantArt. The next one on the list is a Mello/Matt/Near one. Well, more like Near --> Mello <-- Matt. It's really gorgeous though and I'm not much a fan of the Wammy Boys. The art in it is really beautiful, that much I can say!! You'll just have to wait to see the rest though!

Also, if any of you want to help out with anything, pleeeeease offer. You can see what we need here and here. Also if you think we've forgotten anything.. like, we'd really love artists and stuff to draw us some filler pages and someone to make us banners and stuff.




Asides from that... mann. Yesterday I went to the Easter Show. The highlight was probably going on the rides and getting a Pokémon showbag. Yes! FTW!

I don't have much to say. But I did make a hot animated gif. Anyone guess who this is? ... actually it could be anyone.. but there's only one man I know who has a cock that thick and a lover with a body that hot.

( SO. NOT. WORKSAFE. )

I've been so busy lately. Mainly with like, awesome projects and stuff. I've told you all about the Death Note Cosplay thing, well, our website and deviantart are finally up. So go CHECK IT OUT MOTHERFUCKERS.

Blue Note Official Temporary Website
blue--note @ dA

and randomly, here's my deviantART. It's full of really weird stuff though. Why can I never be serious? Oh well.

cake-parasol @ dA

ALSO. We need more characters/people. If you live around Sydney, PLEASE check this out. Or else Arna's going to kill me. She really wants a personal assistant and I REALLY do not want to be a personal assistant. Not to mention we also need Death Note fanatics and stuff and like, people to help us find props OH AND WE REALLY NEED A YAGAMI LIGHT/KIRA. prease help out. Nominate your friends, whatever. Just help me find a Kira (a girl would be totes awesome btw).

I'm playing Pokémon Emerald on my DS at the moment and it's freakin' awesome.

( I've arrived inside you a tiny bit )

The next best part is levelling up my magikarp. Not so appropriately, his name is Yagami-kun.

Well is this it? Is this all?

best Light fanart ever.

Today I was creative.

Maybe a bit too creative.

But I figure it's okay because it's actually in preparation for a photo shoot.

Death Note, again. Though this time it's B/L. And if you don't know who B is then take a little trip over here. Infact, even if you don't know what Death Note is, you should read that just because it's just such a good story. Anyway. Arna said she'd let me do a B/L shoot but we were kind of stuck on the location. Then I realised, well, my room is actually probably pretty good for that and with that in mind, I 'set up'.

( Photos )

p.s. If you're wondering how I got the cassette up there, I nailed it to the wall.

p.p.s I need a B for the photoshoot. All you have to be to.. be.. B ...is caucasian and in Sydney and also willing to wear my L wig. Everything else will be sorted out. Let's make some magic.

The light globe is empty.

I am not tired.

But I sleep because there is nothing else left to do.

I'm finally back (thank God). The shooting was good but I'm so happy to be home considering I've been MIA since Tuesday. We've started putting all the pictures together so far and it looks really good. The website is just starting to come into completion. If anyone feels like hosting us & our Death Note goodness, feel free to offer? The storyline is a bit shaky right now but has so far given us few to no problems (Arna is writing like crazy). Meanwhile all the acting was really good. We all gave it our best and we hope that's good enough!

Meanwhile, this is what I did every time I wasn't on camera.

( I'm so fun with i-i-i-image heavy. )

Then later on I met some cool people and even though they spoke in Chinese for 90% of the time, I had a lot of fun and listened hard. One of the girls seemed to like that I was trying to understand so much because she'd always be like, "Hey hey! Someone translate that!" or she'd look at me, say something in Chinese and say "Right?" and I'd nod and smile and be like "Mhm. Right". It was quite funny.

( So here's a picture. )

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( s-s-sleepy? )